Josie-Tatum and I are going out of town for the next week. Please pray that the LORD will speak to my heart while we are gone, that I can focus on others, focus on my blessings. And, if you don't mind, pray that our LOA comes soon.
I'm so glad the LORD gave us the Psalms. I read the times when David praised the LORD and the times when he lamented. I'm so glad he was transparent.
I wish I could stand strongly in the face of this giant. I must lament.
I am tired of being strong.
Today and yesterday, LOA's came again. Once again, none for us.
My heart is breaking. I am numb. I wish I could cry, but I can't. I'm just snappy and irritable, and I don't like myself much.
My head knows the LORD's ways are perfect, His timing is perfect. But, tonight, my heart does not feel it. I want to know why, and He doesn't always share with us His reasons. Some may think I shouldn't ask why, but I believe He understands.
I am discouraged and need much prayer to come up out of this valley. It saddens me that I can not rejoice with others who are receiving their LOA's this week. I know that is selfish, but I can't shake it. No today, not right now. I have a friend who miscarried tonight. Her story should have made me cry. It is a tragic story. I am so numb I didn't cry then either. That is so not like me.
I do not want a hardened heart.
Thanks for those who encourage us as we wait.