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Monday, April 6, 2009

Why Was It So Hard?

I was to shout, "Crucify him!" During the practice for our passion play, I absolutely could not. I couldn't even open my mouth.

I spent Saturday morning, before our first performance in much prayer. I asked the LORD to help me.

On Saturday night, I was one of the people shouting, "Hosanna! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the LORD." Then, as Jesus entered the streets again, I took a deep breath and cried, "Crucify him!" I began to tremble and cry. As the soldiers cracked their whips and shouted, I sought strength again and was able shout one more time.

I've talked with others who heard my shout and knew it was my voice. They told me of the chills it sent. I've talked with still more who said they couldn't do it. Why was it so hard?

I've thought of that often, given it much thought the past few days. I will be asked to shout again next weekend as we "perform" the play on Saturday and Sunday night.
I've decided it is because I know that my sins did indeed crucify him. In my flesh, there is no good thing. My righteousness is as filthy rags. We don't like to admit that we are the reason He was crucified. It is far easier to sing and worship than to take part in the brutality that was the cross.

I've got a suggestion for you as Easter approaches. Take a deep breath and shout, "Crucify him." It will serve as a reminder that He was crucified for your sins. It will draw you closer to your Savior.

8 comments:

Terry said...

I just tried, I couldn't. and cried...

kjstet said...

I was whispering it in church when we had to read the passion. I do not like to say it at all. So I know what you mean.
Joy

Sabrina said...

I never was able to say it during that program either. Being there Saturday made me miss you all so much!

Lynn said...

One year, we were doing our Cantata at Easter and the song called for us to begin shouting Crucify Him and Release Barabas... etc... I was given a set of heavy knives which I banged together at the proper time... to sound like the driving of nails... I cried each time we practiced... and again at the performance... there was just something about that sound, amid the shouts, that literally tore my heart.

Anita said...

Robbie - I've done the same thing....when we lived in Cville, TN for 7 years we also did the Passion Play and hubby played Christ. I bawled through it during practice and the play as it was WAY too real for me to try and say it plus having my own dear one up there brought it sooo to life for me. I'd never experienced Easter as powerfully as I had during those years. Awesome post and thank you for reminding me.

Sarah said...

We're supposed to say that in our Easter program this weekend...I haven't successfully done it yet.

They also have my singing a solo right after the crucifiction and Mother Mary speaks...you tell me how a hormonal pregnant lady is supposed to sing after that???

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