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The miracle is a beautiful image of Ephesians 3:20--more than I can ask or imagine. Every day is a miracle. Every moment is a miracle. Specifically for our family, the miracle of more is our family growing in ways I would never have imagined when we first committed to adoption 8 years ago. But, the greatest miracle is the change in ME!

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Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I'm Struggling

Just thought I'd tell you.

I've been good and strong....

Only teared up a time or two at the wedding. I was just sooooooo happy for Caleb and Casie.

I was okay at the airport...teared up some. But, I kept thinking....Casie will be with him soon. I will feel better knowing she is going to be with him soon.

Then, there was yesterday.

Stan had to work late.

Whitney was back at Armstrong.

Brandon was back at Athens.

Just the 2 little girls and me.

I grew mournful. I missed my BIG family. I missed all of the noise. I missed all of the excitement. I wished they were just gone to football practice, tennis, or drama. I wished I was preparing supper for all of them. I wished they were coming in soon and the noise at supper would drive me crazy.

Lift me up today, dear friends.



Chelsea Gour said...

I can only imagine. My oldest are only 13, but almost 14. And, I have a feeling it will fly by and I will turn around and they will be gone. Our big family will get smaller and smaller too. I teared up just thinking about you alone with just your littles. My thoughts and prayers are with you. They will come back! They will all be together again! And, I will remember to treasure this time!

Kim K. said...

Thinking of you...BIG TIME! I'm not even ready to think about an empty nest.

Sabrina said...

You and Casie have been on my heart the last few days. I know it has to be hard. Let's get together soon....we can be loud for ya!! :)

Amy said...

Oh, my heart breaks! I am praying. As I type your song about my heart breaking and I never leave Your hand. Just know He has you!!

Anonymous said...

Praying for you dear one.

God's Grace said...

Gosh I know how that feels. I still struggle...don't know if it gets better my friend. It just makes me more thankful and lean more on Him. Love you sister!

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