Well, I suppose it won't be much of a secret after today.
Did you take a good look at that face?
I have looked at it many times in the past week.
I believe the LORD made the crooked paths straight for our family to see his face. You remember the post last week. (click here) As we were praying for and advocating for Xiao Yong, I joined an advocacy group to see photos of him. In the same folder was the photo above. I instantly felt a connection, but....
We were advocating for Xiao Yong.
When I learned Xiao Yong had a family, I went back to the advocacy group and looked at more photos:
Knowing that Stan had surprised me by considering Xiao Yong's adoption if we had the money, I thought he might be open to this little one. Especially because, he has spina bifida. I have learned that many have requested to see his file and thus far, each one has been concerned about the uncertainties of spina bifida.
I've been down that road. I have learned enough about him to know that the nerve involvement from his meningocele is less than that of Ellie's. He is walking independently, with a limp. I was even blessed with a video. He is currently potty trained, but I know it will be necessary to have urodynamics to determine if the pressures on his bladder are at appropriate levels.
There was a sponsor willing to help with Xiao Yong's adoption, but there is not one now. I continued to pray.
We have no money.
I attended the LOVE the LEAST Conference where Gwen Oatsvall reminded me that God funds what her favors. She continued to speak of the BIG GOD and the little me. As I talked with Suzanne, she reminded me that if we pursued this adoption without the money, we were giving God the opportunity to do what only HE can do. I attended the fund raising break out session and my mind was spinning!!!!
I continued to pray.
As I left the conference, I sent a text to several prayer warrior friends. I asked this question, "How do you know the difference between faith and foolishness? Is it foolish to pursue an adoption without any money?" I received a reply from a beautiful young Christian lady, who is living out her faith and will soon spend the summer at Maria's Big House of Hope. (Click here for her blog.) She sent me the scripture I needed for affirmation. I Corinthians 1:25--The foolishness of God is wiser than men.
I sent that to a hesitant Stan who only texted back, "Deep."
He is willing if we have the funds.
I am willing to step out and see if the funds show up.
So, I've shared with the children. And, they are excited. Ellie thinks she wants to play with this precious child.
The big kids started throwing names around last night.
So, I'm asking...no....BEGGING for prayer.
I've talked with two agencies. I'm looking at his file. The only hesitation we have is money. That sounds big, right? But, if that is the only hesitation, I can trust a BIGGER God.
We must first request PA...preapproval. There are some of the medical requirements for the China program that Stan and I no longer meet. We would have to get a waiver. That part of the adoption would be in the hands of the CCAA. They have both approved and denied similar requests. An agency is ready to seek that for us.
So, I'm ready to continue to journey down the road less traveled. I have read, "If You Want To Walk On Water, Then You've Got to Get Out of the Boat." I am jumping out of the boat. I'm willing to say, "Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you."
I've read Radical, and I want my faith to radically declare that JESUS CHRIST is LORD OF ALL! I don't want to sit here comfortably saying, "Well, we would adopt IF we had the money." I don't want to set a limit on the God who c
I've just begun Crazy Love, and I want to live that life that shouts she is crazy, crazy in love with Jesus, and LOOK WHAT HE HAS DONE!
Trusting in the prayers your pray to a Saviour who loves us, who loves the Fatherless.
If God has another family for this little, please pray His perfect peace when we receive that answer. I'm giving you my heart. Handle it gently.
And, if we get PA, I'm going to be asking some of you to help raise funds. I have something in mind already!