Wednesday, April 4, 2012
There has been a time following each of our adoptions that I have hit a wall. Call it jet lag. Call it fatigue. Some might even call it a touch of post-adoption depression. While I believe each of these to cause physical and emotional symptoms, I realized this week, and each adoption before--- I am thirsty.
In the busyness that ensues after coming home, I have allowed myself to get too busy to sit with Him. My house is a wreck. I need to finish putting away what I have unpacked. We took a week's worth of winter clothes, which we needed, but now need to be put into storage.
Josie-Tatum needed new clothes, and thanks to Vicki and a whopping $15 purchase of 6 tops at a local consignment shope, she has a new wardrobe. Only, we've got to put the old wardrobe in storage. Ellie has outgrown last year's spring clothes, so I've go to get into storage and find JT's hand me downs. The boys have been given clothese they need to grow into as lots they can wear now. I've been sorting through. The dishes need washing, but I decided I am not going to do that tonight.
But, before I talked to you.
I talked to Him.
He reminded me that He is still there, ready to quench my thirst, that he is faithful and just to forgive us when we lose focus on the Giver while caring for the gifts. He reminded me that He is not far from each on of us. (Ro.17:27) and He is rich in mercy. (Ephesians 2:4) And, I am so glad He is.
I have poured out much of Him, but He has replaced more. And, I am grateful. I believe my sleep will be sweeter.
I wonder how many of you have found that emptiness after coming home. How did Christ fill you back up?
I can count my blessings still. I praise the LORD that, though jet-lag catches me sleepy at various moments, I am getting more sleep following this trip to China than either of the other two. Praise HIM! They just go to bed when I tell them it is time. I lie in the floor and they are quicly asleep. Even today after lunch, Qing Zhuang asked if we would be taking a nap after lunch. He's getting the routine after just 3 days. And, nap we did. Quite nicely, I might add. I did't catch up on HW today, I caught up on sleep.
Now with a healthier spirit, we have a visit to the city park today. It is interesting to watch each of the boys' personalities blossom in different ways in new situations. Zhuang Zhuang, who is usually less likely to get involved in a new situation was the busy, busy, body on the playground today. I have to work so hard to catch him smiling, I enjoyed the opportunity for lots today. Qing Zuang obliged in the beginning and then walked around rather forlorn. Oh, how I wonder what they think and feel, and are unable to say. Oh, how I thank our Heavenly Father, who quenches my thirst soul, that he canspeak to me, and I will know how to speak to them.
They did have fun at the park.
And, the girls did too.
But, the funniest moment in our day occurred at the funeral home tonight. Zhuang Zhuang was meetin his cousin Eli for the first time. e Eli is almost 3. ZZ is 4. I told ZZ Eli's name, and ZZ said, Hello, followed by a series of phrases that we are not sure of. That might have been funny. But, when Eli spoke back to ZZ in the same tones as ZZ did, it nearly split a few sides. Perhaps we'll be blessed to see the show again tomorrow at the funeral. Hey: Maybe the two boys should be given a chance to speak. ;)